Footsteps beneath my window.

...Talking to an old friend definitely perks up your day..So,today I had the phone engaged for more than an hour with my awesome friend who I've known since A-B-C.I wish i knew more people who I can just blabber to for hours at end.On second thoughts,No,I'm happy with everyone I have.

Things are changing and I don't like change.Yeah,everyone says its all for the best and blah blah.But things are getting to me and I just want to be depressed.I refuse to look at the open door because I want the closed door to just open and run into it before it closes again..I have this serious aversion towards happy people these days.If someone has a smile that's so wide it reaches his forehead,it makes me wanna shout 'STOP SMILING LIKE A MORON,WHAT ARE U SO FREAKIN' HAPPY ABOUT,PUNK??!'..kinda like what Barbie's current display picture on Orkut does to me...Makes me ultra-depressed...and Michael Jackson's dead.And people are actually happy about it.Well,most people.That is just utterly disrespectful.Sure,he was an oddball who may have done some weird things and had serious issues,BUT THE MAN'S DEAD.the man who created a new era of music.DEAD.He came ,he sang and moon-walked his way into our hearts and made us all stare in awe at his gravity-defying dance moves.HOW CAN ANYONE HATE SUCH A COOL PERSON?MY favourite MJ track is 'The way you make me feel'.It makes me wanna just get up and dance,anytime,anywhere.I don't think I know anybody who hasn't heard of Michael Jackson.Name one person who doesn't have the urge to just try those moves when 'Thriller's on T.V.One person who doesn't get goosebumps and a fuzzy feeling listening to Heal The World.One person who remains unmoved by 'They don't care about us.''Beat It' can make anybody turn into a rebel.He shows so much emotion in his song-I love that.For all you losers making jokes about this legend's death,YOU'RE A PATHETIC WASTE OF SKIN.GO DIE.say what you will about him, but NOTHING can compare to his talent, influence and just pure awesomeness, RIP Michael, you will forever be missed.And may you teach the moon how to walk....<3
I have so much of strange friend requests pending in my orkut account.I think I actually know some of them.But still,I do not want people I hardly talk to to be on my friend list.But noooo,no matter how much I reject them each time they just have to keep sending the requests over and over again.WHAT DOES IT TAKE FOR PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND THAT I DON'T WANT YOU IN MY LIST????!!!!!!Yeah,I know..Why am I telling you this???I don't know.BUT if you're still reading-SCORE!haha..I'm not depressed as much as I was when I started this.Probably because I'm excited about something that might happen.Or 'coz of the fact that more people are reading my blog and appreciating it.EEP!Sometimes,even I get confused with my mood swings.I don't like the rain anymore.'Any cold wet thing'-I hate(YEAH,TWILIGHT!)Its making everything all the more depressing.Sometimes,I wish I could actually be diagnosed with depression,so I could have a reason as to why I'm not normal at times.
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Nothing much.

You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background?. It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.

Some days you're the windshield...

..and some days you're the bug..And today,I'm the bug..no,make that the bug stuck between the wiper blades.:(..Life's being a total bitch right now...I have the worst case of the flu which is as worse as humanly possible.I cant sit,I cant walk,I cant sleep,I cant eat,I cant stand,I can barely even type this now..the pain,the agony...its taking over me..LOL,I sound so emo...-_-..NExt thing you know,you'll be seeing me walking on the streets with a weird hair-do and black nails..HAHA..ok,i cant laugh either..It aches in places I didn't even know existed..let me try screaming...AA..AAHH...AA..NO,I CAN'T DO THAT EITHER..THIS SO TOTALLY STICKS..(combination for stinks and sucks).

Bwack..My mouth tastes weird...Atleast not as weird as Barbie smelling biriyani when she has a cold..:P..I soo wanted to finish reading Breaking Dawn,but i couldn't because the book was too heavy and I was too weak to even lift it...

I see dead people.Walking around like regular people. They don't see each other. They only see what they want to see. They don't know they're dead..Sixth sense is probably the only horror movie I like..I prefer happy movies..Horror movies are normally about a bunch of tormented people who breathe way too heavily..Maybe their underwear's way too tight..HAHA..Barbie is seriously freaking me out about blood tests and heart count and other stuff I don't understand.:S..This is so annoying,,Before writing this,I had so much of thoughts..And now,I cant think of anything..Why do people ask you to have oatmeal when you're sick????Like Barbie says,Its lumpy,gross and grainy...It looks like vomit..If I sneeze anymore,I'm pretty sure my nose is going to fall off.I read somewhere that people,long ago,believed that if you sneeze a 100 times,you'd die..In that case,I should be dead by now..
The only interesting that happened today is that someone who I stumbled across knows someone I know.The wonders of blogging.;)..So,maybe I know someone who knows someone who knows someone who knows someone who knows someone who knows someone who knows Shania Twain!!!!!!!
Anyway,I'd love to ramble more but I gotta go gargle.How i hate doing that..*Sigh*IF you're not sick,You suck.Period.

...What they all say.

I don't understand how some people fall asleep before u can say '1..2..3..'.It takes me forever.Last night,it took me longer than that.I was in no mood to read a proper book to fall asleep,so I thought,'Why not read my diary..!'And so I fished out my green diary(with dog figures on the cover!)from under my bed(Note to self:thing of a new hiding place for diary).As soon as I began to read,I thought I should just put it aside since it was bringing back bad memories.But then,I realized how much I've changed.I could actually picture myself growing up as I moved from one entry to another.Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is entirely different.I've had my fair share of blue days,disappointments and regrets.I know what its like to feel as insignificantly small as possible;to feel like nobody cares and you're all alone.But slowly,you realize that there's absolutely no point brooding over yesterday.There comes a point when you're just tired of it all,tired of all the drama and the bullshit and you finally learn to let go..And just when you think things are getting alright,life takes a U-turn and you're back at where you started.So what if things don't end the way you want them to?So what if things get downright shitty?Sure,It's not always rainbows and butterflies.But that doesn't mean its the end of the world.Life is about not knowing,having to change,taking in the moment and making the best of it without knowing whats going to happen next.Each day you can choose either to move forward or to simply give up.So,next time something doesn't go your way and leaves you devastated:you cry a river,build a bridge and GET OVER IT!;)

Thankyou,diary:)

Life's like photography..You develop from the negatives~

Perfection.

..They say that nobody's perfect.They say practice makes perfect.I wish they'd just make up thier minds.

Why is everybody striving to be someone they're not?to be better, more, a different person entirely. Is anyone actually happy with who they are right now? I know i'm not. I know there are a million ways i could be a better, happier, prettier, more successful person. But why do we feel the need to strive for perfection - something we usually see in others, but very rarely see in ourselves.

most people only love you for who you pretend to be. to keep their love, you keep pretending, and you keep performing. you get locked into an image; you get locked into an act. but real love means letting a person be who he really is. when others demand that we become the people they want us to be, they force us to destroy the person we really are. it's a subtle kind of murder, and the most loving parents and relatives commit this murder daily, with smiles on their faces.

-jim morrison

..Yeah,we've heard a lot about people telling us to 'embrace our flaws' with very few actually attempting to do so.But all said and done,flaws are what makes us human and sometimes what we perceive as flaws are the things that make us great and standout.Plus,something thats really hard and equally amazing,is to give up on being perfect and start the work on becoming yourself.

:)

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Do I make a good first impression?What is the color of magic?Are stars actually spirits of dead people?Will there come a time where people go holidaying on the moon?Why do you always want something you cant have?DWhy does X stand for kiss while O stands for hug?Do you think im random?why do you not feel ticklish when you tickle yourself?Is true love just once in a lifetime?Who's going to live in my house 500 years from now?How many tomatoes have you eaten this year?Ever lost a really important text-book during your exams and then found it after the paper was over?Do I already know the person I'll marry?Do you ever stare at the lines on the palm of your hand and think they are pretty?Did the captain of the titanic cry?Is there a ghost sitting beside me this very moment?Will my kids look at old photos of me and laugh?Why didnt Caesar jsut listen to Calpurnia?How did people survive without blenders,telephones and facebook?Have you ever eaten a crayon?Will we ever see people whose faces we've seen only in dreams?Whats for dinner today?Et' tu Brute?;)Are you still reading this?Do you think I'm stupid?Why do I care so much about what other people think of me?Are they looking at me?Why do I hate you and still wish the best for you?Where are you going to be 20 years from now?What is your name?Why do old photos make you cry?Do bald men wash their heads with soap or shampoo?Which shoe do you put on first?Who am I?

Guess its one of those days..

..So,I woke up at 7 with a blocked nose and lips as dry as the Sahara.I felt like an ugly 100 year old iguana.My head felt so heavy and BLOCKED.Probably it was all the travelling.I dislike that feeling.It was first day at tuition today,well my first day because I'd missed the first two days on account of me being out of town.I had to get the tuition place at 9 or so I thought.So,there I was in front of the mirror making myself tuition-y and that's when this other girl who attends the same tuition dropped by to give me her notebook.Yes,I missed the class-it was actually at 7.Turned out that my mom just forgot.Frustrating.Then,I had to go to school so i could get admitted there OFFICIALLY.THIS SUCKS!Alright,I had to get accepted here or else I wouldn't go anywhere and I might have to be home-schooled..AAAAAH!It's complicated.But still,I have 2 more years to rot in this horrid place(Sorry if you're someone from school,but freedom of speech and expression is granted in this nation).I was this close (brings index finger and thumb close to each other to represent an inch or so) to moving to another city to continue my studies.But NOOOO,"some" people just had to 'enlighten' me about starting all over and thereby,freaking me out.*sigh*And yet again,for the 100Th time,I got asked why i scored so low in English.Like,how am i supposed to know?I'm the English bimbette.I don't know anything about it.Besides that,I cant sign into Orkut.The screen's just the light blue colour but nothing's in it.Its empty.MY ORKUT'S ALL BLUE AND EMPTY.I know Orkut's extremely lame and pathetic,but its so much easier to stalk people on orkut than Facebook.(Facebook is the best for everything else.)I didn't get to go to Naeera's place today beacause my mom's having those weird moods.Edward Cullen started getting nice in Eclipse.I like Jacob Black better.He looks hotter and is more real unlike Mr.Cold.And to top it all,Bride and Prejudice was on T.V,which is the lamest movie of the century.This movie just screams out "Indians are dumb.IF you want proof,watch me".Aiswarya Rai is probably the biggest airhead I know.When she was angry she rolled her eyes. When distressed she rolled her eyes, when just talking rolled her eyes. When happy rolled her eyes & giggled & put her hands together to clap like a school girl.Also,the English lyrics in the songs got on my nerves,But I had to watch the entire movie because I was too depressed to do anything.I wanted it to rain in the morning,but it didn't.And now its raining.
AAAAAAARGH!Why does all this happen on the same day?Probably I'm the bulls' eye on God's dartboard today.
Thankyou for listening to me.I feel a lot better:)