......."Swathi,I'm leaving today..."
That's what I heard when I answered the phone this morning.Goodbye,goodbye.I hate that word.Where the heck is the "good" in goodbye?It feels so lousy just saying the word.Why do people leave?Why do we have to grow up?Why cant we always live in one time period?WHY?WHY?WHY?
..But,then again,I guess goodbyes are a part of life.And I just have to deal with it-just like everyone else.But,why now?I write this because I'm disturbed that my friend (lets call her Y for matters of security) is leaving to Mangalore to do her 11Th and 12Th standard.It seemed so out of the blue when she told me.Y's one of my first friends at school.I was the new girl at school in the 6Th grade.I felt like I belonged to an entirely different planet.There were kids who were friendly and nice,but,I just couldn't feel at peace with any of them.An entire year went by and I still didn't feel like I "belonged" to my new school.That's when Y walked in.We were made to sit next to each other and we just "clicked"!From then on,there was no turning back.I did make a lot of friends,but in my list of REAL friends,she would always be among the tops.Its like the world's off your shoulders when you're with her.We've seen so much together,She and I.She was one of the very few who was around for more than just the laughs and the fun.I've seen her cry and she's seen me cry.She knows all there is to know about me.I can just be "me" with her.And she was never one to judge me.We did have a rough patch somewhere along the path.There was anger.There was hurt.But we made through it all and grew closer than ever.
Now,I really wish life was a music player,where you can just rewind to your favourite part of the song and play it over and over.Y's this dainty vulnerable girl who gets carried away very easily.And I've always felt like her protector.(Yeah,sounds dumb-but,I have my own theories.)The main point is,I'm going to miss looking out for her.I'm gonna miss singing sa-re-ga-ma "avar" style.I'm gonna miss cracking jokes only we laughed our heads off for while the others thought we had a brain problem!I'm gonna miss her calling me "Zwadhi".I'm gonna miss sniggering at the teachers.I'm gonna miss those utterly useless and unusual conversations we have.I'm gonna miss talkin in our tha-tha language.I'm gonna miss it all.Each and everything about you,Y."Aint nobody gonna take your place!It sure is not gonna be the same without her.The morning bus rides are gonna be so lifeless and boring.:(
When she told me,I didn't tell her to stay.I know how much she wants this.That's easy to figure out considering the fact that both of us are the only ones who hate our school to the core!Naturally,we'd jump at every possible oppurtunity to get out of this place.Yeah,I'm gonna miss talking about how much we hate school!So,its her chance to start over and I'm letting go.Sure,I'm happy for her.But this hurts.I know at some point,all of us have to go different directions and I just have to deal with it.
~When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end~
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Not just a dog.
Have you ever imagined how easy life would be as a dog??Laze around everyday-chewing on things you shouldnt be chewing,running after random objects,digging up gardens,sleeping,being fed,groomed and walked by others.The entire world is your playground.No worries in the world.School and career are no concern.Wow!Isn't that enough to make you envious?Or so,I thought...till Caesar and Cleo walked into my life.I still remember that day,10 years ago,when two fur balls were placed in my hands.Those furballs taught me the greatest lessons in life.
Now,the worst thing about getting a pet is the ending.Losing a pet is never easy.No matter how old your dog was, how many years you had together, or how expected her death, the grief can be overwhelming.I lost Cleo when I was 11.Your first dog is the hardest to get over.I'm still not over Cleo.We got another dobberman and named her Cleo,too.Cleo(II)developed this really critical disease and her death was expected.I was still trying to get over Cleo(I) and another loss broke me.Caesar's still healthy and kicking and has been with us for 11 years now.All three dogs have touched my soul and taught me so much.
A person can truly learn a lot from a dog.My dogs have taught me to appreciate the simplest things in life,about optimism in the face of adversity.We,humans, are constantly brooding over the past or worrying about the future-we forget that life,real life,is lived right now,in this very moment.But living in the moment is something that dogs do naturally.Mostly,I've learnt about friendship and selflessness and above all else,unwavering loyalty.A dog doesnt care if you're rich or poor,clever or dull.Give your dog your heart and he will give you his.
Here is a little something I came across while I was browsing:
8 Lessons From A Dog
*When bad things happen, keep wagging your tail.
*Be patient and still, and your problem will eventually be sorted.
*Trust in the kindness of strangers.
*Accept others’ help, because some things you cannot do yourself.
*Humans worry about things that never happen.
*Just because someone thinks about kiling you doesn’t mean she doesn’t love you. .
*Lick the people you love today, before you fall into another hole.
This really made me smile.:)
And you know what really REALLY gets on my nerves?Brainless people who say-"C'mon,It's just a dog".."You care so much for just a dog?"..
Some of my best moments have come about with "just a dog"."Just a dog" has been there for me through my darkest days."Just a dog gave me comfort and the hope to go on and face life.If you too think its "just a dog",you will probably understand phrases like.."Just a friend","just a promise" and so on..Next time I hear the phrase,"Just a Dog",i shall smile and say to myself,"they JUST DONT UNDERSTAND".
..No matter what,even with bad breath,silly minds and pure intentions,dogs will always be man's best friend.
Now,the worst thing about getting a pet is the ending.Losing a pet is never easy.No matter how old your dog was, how many years you had together, or how expected her death, the grief can be overwhelming.I lost Cleo when I was 11.Your first dog is the hardest to get over.I'm still not over Cleo.We got another dobberman and named her Cleo,too.Cleo(II)developed this really critical disease and her death was expected.I was still trying to get over Cleo(I) and another loss broke me.Caesar's still healthy and kicking and has been with us for 11 years now.All three dogs have touched my soul and taught me so much.
A person can truly learn a lot from a dog.My dogs have taught me to appreciate the simplest things in life,about optimism in the face of adversity.We,humans, are constantly brooding over the past or worrying about the future-we forget that life,real life,is lived right now,in this very moment.But living in the moment is something that dogs do naturally.Mostly,I've learnt about friendship and selflessness and above all else,unwavering loyalty.A dog doesnt care if you're rich or poor,clever or dull.Give your dog your heart and he will give you his.
Here is a little something I came across while I was browsing:
8 Lessons From A Dog
*When bad things happen, keep wagging your tail.
*Be patient and still, and your problem will eventually be sorted.
*Trust in the kindness of strangers.
*Accept others’ help, because some things you cannot do yourself.
*Humans worry about things that never happen.
*Just because someone thinks about kiling you doesn’t mean she doesn’t love you. .
*Lick the people you love today, before you fall into another hole.
This really made me smile.:)
And you know what really REALLY gets on my nerves?Brainless people who say-"C'mon,It's just a dog".."You care so much for just a dog?"..
Some of my best moments have come about with "just a dog"."Just a dog" has been there for me through my darkest days."Just a dog gave me comfort and the hope to go on and face life.If you too think its "just a dog",you will probably understand phrases like.."Just a friend","just a promise" and so on..Next time I hear the phrase,"Just a Dog",i shall smile and say to myself,"they JUST DONT UNDERSTAND".
..No matter what,even with bad breath,silly minds and pure intentions,dogs will always be man's best friend.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
25 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME..
Yes,I know this is my second blog in a day..But..AAHHH!..WHO CARES?!..so..25 random things about me was all over Facebook a few months back.I thought it was an amazing application.You come to know SO MUCH about your friendspthings they wouldn't tell you directly..So,Here's my list..:
1.I tend to judge people by the shoes they're wearing.
2.I never get bored when im alone.i can stare at a wall for a whole day and still not be bored!
3.Math is stupid.I hate it with a passion.I mean,who wants to know how fast trains are and how tall that sky-scraper is???
4.My first best friend was Cleo,my dobberman.[may your soul rest in peace,cleo.]
5.I can raise one eyebrow...just the left one ,not the right.
6.I grew up watching disney movies and Full House.Everything i need to know in life,I learnt from them.
7.If I could do anything I wanted to do and not have to worry about making a living – it would be travel, write, take photographs, read, meet new people, learn about new things, and live in a house with 4 dogs.
8.The one time i thought my world would end was when two of my friends and I got busted for forging a letter to our math teacher about one of us not bringing a notebook to school.I'm not proud of it and Ive learnt my lesson.
9.I've always wanted to scream in a silent classroom.
10.I always have to repeat my name more than twice to people when they ask for it.Later,Im asked to spell it too.
11.I actually beleived it when my brother told me I was adopted since I thought i had nothing in common with my family then.:P
12.I once when to school without my schoolbag.I just forgot!.
13.I dont have a cell phone and i dont intend to have one till I turn 20!..one of the few things my parents are proud of!
14.I love wedding movies!..The wedding Planner,Runaway bride,My Best Friend's Wedding,27 dresses,License to Wed,Father ff the Bride,Made of Honour,Bride Wars,I think I do......Love em' all!!!
15."Random" is one of my favourite words!
16.I once had a pair of guinea pigs-Doughnut and Muffin.But unfortunately,they died of menengitis(brain fever).
17.I hate forward e-mails.I dont care if i die at midnight,Im not going to forward your e-mail to 50 people!
18.I always sort m&m's by color before eating them.
19.I love getting letters from people and writing to them.
20 .As a kid,the Telletubbies used to freak me out.
21.My favourite colour is blue.It makes me feel free!
22.I never really liked Linkin Park.I only did so coz' it was "cool" to like them then!:P
23. I have an amazingly high pain tolerance.
24.I am really scared of death-my own and that of people i love-so much that I hardly ever talk about it.
25..I beleive in true love and demand a fairytale ending!
.....
Thats about it
:)
1.I tend to judge people by the shoes they're wearing.
2.I never get bored when im alone.i can stare at a wall for a whole day and still not be bored!
3.Math is stupid.I hate it with a passion.I mean,who wants to know how fast trains are and how tall that sky-scraper is???
4.My first best friend was Cleo,my dobberman.[may your soul rest in peace,cleo.]
5.I can raise one eyebrow...just the left one ,not the right.
6.I grew up watching disney movies and Full House.Everything i need to know in life,I learnt from them.
7.If I could do anything I wanted to do and not have to worry about making a living – it would be travel, write, take photographs, read, meet new people, learn about new things, and live in a house with 4 dogs.
8.The one time i thought my world would end was when two of my friends and I got busted for forging a letter to our math teacher about one of us not bringing a notebook to school.I'm not proud of it and Ive learnt my lesson.
9.I've always wanted to scream in a silent classroom.
10.I always have to repeat my name more than twice to people when they ask for it.Later,Im asked to spell it too.
11.I actually beleived it when my brother told me I was adopted since I thought i had nothing in common with my family then.:P
12.I once when to school without my schoolbag.I just forgot!.
13.I dont have a cell phone and i dont intend to have one till I turn 20!..one of the few things my parents are proud of!
14.I love wedding movies!..The wedding Planner,Runaway bride,My Best Friend's Wedding,27 dresses,License to Wed,Father ff the Bride,Made of Honour,Bride Wars,I think I do......Love em' all!!!
15."Random" is one of my favourite words!
16.I once had a pair of guinea pigs-Doughnut and Muffin.But unfortunately,they died of menengitis(brain fever).
17.I hate forward e-mails.I dont care if i die at midnight,Im not going to forward your e-mail to 50 people!
18.I always sort m&m's by color before eating them.
19.I love getting letters from people and writing to them.
20 .As a kid,the Telletubbies used to freak me out.
21.My favourite colour is blue.It makes me feel free!
22.I never really liked Linkin Park.I only did so coz' it was "cool" to like them then!:P
23. I have an amazingly high pain tolerance.
24.I am really scared of death-my own and that of people i love-so much that I hardly ever talk about it.
25..I beleive in true love and demand a fairytale ending!
.....
Thats about it
:)
What do you write in your first blog?
Soooo,this is my first blog! ever.I'm waiting for the rush of excitement to overcome me!..
So,is my first blog supposed to be all about myself?I'v been wanting to creat a blog for a very long time and i used to make a list of the different things i would write about!Oh yeah,I love making lists..And now we have summer break,so it seemed like the perfect time to creat a blog.I promise I'll try to write in as regularly as possible.
I start this blog for a lot of reasons,mostly because I think this is a great outlet for my daily craziness and its about time i pen some of the crazy episodes and experiences my lucky life has given me.Earlier,I used to think a blog was like a journal and I really didnt get the whole point.I used to think,Why would anyone want the whole world to read thier diary?!..But now,going through different blog entries,I've realized that this is so much more than keeping a journal.It gives you so much exposure to the world outside,makes you realize how different life is for different people across the globe..So,three cheers for you ,Mr.Man Who Created Blogging!
I hope my blogs dont turn out to be crappy and empty!I could jazz it up with pictures and videos,but i dont know how to do any of that.Yes,I'm technologically retarded.I soo envy people who know how to do the right thing when something happens to your computer!By the way,I'm just 15 years old and I'm still not sure what i actually want to do with my life.My fields of interests are media and entertainment.I absolutely love writing.I wrote my first poem in Class 6.It was about a dog who didnt win a prize at the dog show.Gosh,I blabber so much!
Anyway,I need to get to know this place around..Please comment if you stumble across even if its just to say Hi or to be nasty.It'll be nice to know someone has found it!
Have a nice day:)
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